color: SOME SOLDIER'S MOM: Searching for Angels

Sunday, July 02, 2006

Searching for Angels

I often wonder how people find my blog. More and more these days, people have it book marked and come by on a regular basis to read.

I also know that people find the blog by searching. Some people are searching for things to send to soldiers. Some are searching for information on deployment. I am always gratified however they get here. However, I am always saddened whenever I find that someone has found his or her way to my blog by searching the name of a soldier who has died in Operation Iraqi Freedom or Enduring Freedom. This happens quite regularly and it never fails to twist my heart to see that someone has searched the name of Tommy Byrd, Matt Bohling, Tim Watkins, Jason Benford, David Salie… And the trend has escalated since I published the names of the 2500. Just this morning, people came by the blog looking for Hugo R. Lopez, Casey Michael Laware, Frederick L. Miller, Jeremiah S. Santos, Mark Smykowski and Jason Allen Fegler.

These are not just line items on a site meter to me. I understand that these are family or friends of those we have lost in this war on terrorism. I look at every one of those searched names. I wonder every time who is looking? Who is searching? A high school or college classmate? Is it a sister or a brother? A daughter or son? A wife? A mother (some other soldier’s mom?)

I wonder about the last words the soldier and the searcher spoke… or what was left unsaid? When was the last time they saw one another? What will they remember and treasure the most? Of course, I can’t know who they are… I just know that they are searching.

I often wonder why they are searching? Are they looking for something specific? I imagine that some search their loved one’s name to safeguard the name and to be sure that no one is using the name in vain or in a manner disrespectful to them. Others may want to read everything that they can find on their loved one.

I have received emails from friends and family members of some of the Heroes. Some write to thank me for remembering. Others write to tell me of the soldier’s family or their own personal relationship with their Angel. I treasure every email. I answer every one. I have never had a family member or friend that hasn’t been grateful for the words or the mention of the name. It’s the hardest part of what I write, but also the most treasured because I believe that so long as we remember, these soldiers and marines and sailors and airmen will be loved and they will be honored.

As we come upon the day on which we celebrate the independence -- the freedom -- of this country, I pause to salute all who have served in defense of our country and I honor all of those past and present who have made the ultimate sacrifice to secure and maintain this freedom. Let freedom ring.

Copyright Some Soldier’s Mom 2006. All rights reserved.


Remember*

Remember
I will still be here
As long as you hold me
In your memory
Remember
When your dreams have ended
Time can be transcended
Just remember me
I am the one star that keeps burning
So brightly
It is the last light
To fade into the rising sun
I'm with you whenever you tell
My story
For I am all I've done
Remember
I will still be here
As long as you hold me
In your memory
Remember me
I am that warm voice
in the cold wind
That whispers
And if you listen
You'll hear me call across the sky
As long as I still can reach out
And touch you
Then I will never die
Remember
I'll never leave you
If you will only
Remember me
Remember I will still be here
As long as you hold me
In your memory
Remember
When your dreams have ended
Time can be transcended
I live forever
Remember me
Remember me
Remember me

By Cynthia Weil and James Horner
From the Soundtrack of the movie, “Troy”

3 Comments:

At 7/02/2006 5:36 PM , Blogger PatrickMead said...

Touching, brilliant, provocative. Your site is always a worthwhile visit, a good use of my time. Thank you.

 
At 7/02/2006 5:47 PM , Blogger Melinda said...

It pulls at my heart when I read search terms that link people to my site as well...always especially poignant are things having to do with our brave men & women in the military.
Very thoughtful of you to comment on it, Mom, and I wouldn't expect you to do any less than treasure & answer all the e-mail you receive.

 
At 7/02/2006 7:42 PM , Blogger Station Commando said...

It's the power of the name. Your post reminded me of the time I visited the Wall in D.C.. It was 2:00AM and I had the whole place to myself. Just looking at the name provokes so much thought. I am glad your tribute was done in a way that honored those people as opposed to the way the news networks do it. There are a lot of people, like me, who looked up a specific name without searching for it because we know your site. The name I knew? Todd Nunes. Thank you.

 

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